Feeling SOMETHING...

There is a time to start certain things in your life.

There is a time  to stop certain things in your life.

There is a time to shatter certain things in your life.

Actually not in a full swing to write anything. But I want to scribble something

 to get out from my madness....  "WORDS" the most powerful weapon in the world. It can amuse you or shatter you into pieces.

I fell in Love with the words when I was a child. My first Love... And my first love letter was written in a small dairy and it was addressed to God. Even if I didn't get any reply, I was kept on writing my love letters to God every day. My innocent and cute little heart expected a reply from Him whenever I opened my diary.  BUT HE NEVER REPLIED....

Actually I never wrote any love letters to anyone in my life, never happened any love affair the way I dreamt or trusted. Only infatuations were experienced , not a REAL LOVE. Actually My world was just encompassed by books and writings. But I was an ardent fan of a "Divine Love" and "Divine Sex". I have a very strong perception that once you experience divine love , then you can experience divine sex as well. Both are well connected and it's not possible by every human beings to experience both the divinity in it's full swings. I always ponder that Those who are experienced both the divinity altogether are considered as the most beautiful and luckiest people in this world.  

I have been experiencing that divinity in love with my letters since childhood. Divinity in sex .. that is just a surprise.. like a dream... I have to give birth to my First baby this year... I am on my way... I do always wonder about each and every incidents happening in our life. Everything has it's own reasons but the impact will depend on the way you dealt with the circumstances. Sometimes although you know that things are not in favour of us, the external stimuli will have the command over you to take you to your destiny. There is a saying in Malayalam "സംഭവാമി യുഗേ യുഗേ!". Means whatever is written in your destiny will happen in due course of time .

I would really like to take a long break in my life, staying away from all worldly attachments and just disappear.... No more Love, no more pain , no more dreams ... just You and This Beautiful Nature... A fervent deep coupling with the Nature...

 Oh! my God my madness is going out of the boundaries ...  

Nobody can stop my Love

nobody can stop my pain

 nobody can stop my Life

Nobody can stop my Destiny

For I am the only one responsible

for my existence...  

Congrats Rengi

My heartfelt congratulations Rengi for your first creation. 

"Appooppan thadikal " Rengi 's first creation is going to Publish on 22nd October during Tharamgini meet at Cochi. It's your determination and hard work made your dream possible. Expressing our gratitude to Mr. Aron Devrag,Actor and writer, Tharamgini online Magazine and the publishing press for their support and guidance. 

Love you too Rengi and God bless you. May all your dreams come true... My Love and Prayers are always with You.

Karthika...

 

              " how much he may feel bad if he looses his friend and he said lessthan 1% ." 

Solitariness

Wants to write a lot but mind and thoughts are not in good terms. Actually they have ample of conflicts to deal with. What will you get at the end .. Nothing... Sometimes I wish if I had a mindset with Low cognitive proficiency. So that l don't ponder much, and I can accept everything as it is.

Being lonely is not easy... You need a strong mindset to face all the realities a lone.... You need to face distinct questions... You need to find the solutions which have contradictory statements. Nevertheless, you will reach the point where you can satisfy your soul and mind even in the secluded life.

Solitariness is a best teacher but must have the determination to mold your life the way your destiny has designed. Your learning just disseminates into your mind and soul and will be  expressed through your words and deeds. There you are the only one responsible for your life and experiences, for you are not trying to be associated or connected with any worldly attachments.

Am I going to out of the topic.. Somewhere... I can feel that I am loosing the connections in my writing... Just relax and reach out for your inner bliss.... My friend always encourages me to find that.. I am trying my level best to reach out for that ultimate level of happiness... Healing will take time and the journey to that seems so long... But I will reach to my final destination.

Jab we met

Jab We Met... I love this movie for certain reasons... 

എന്നിലെ പ്രണയം ..

എന്നു നിന്റെ മൊയിദീൻ എന്ന അനശ്വരമായ പ്രണയ കഥയിലെ ഞാൻ കേൾക്കാൻ ഇഷ്ടപ്പെട്ട ഒരു ഗാനം ... അത്‌ കേൾക്കുമ്പോൾ ജീവിതത്തിൽ ഞാൻ തേടിയ എന്റെ പ്രണയത്തിന്റെ ഓർമ്മകൾ എന്നിലേക്ക്‌ ഒരു ഇളം തെന്നലായി അലയടിക്കുന്നു ...

മൗനങ്ങൾക്കുമപ്പുറം നീറുന്ന വേദനകൾക്കുമപ്പുറം എന്നിലെ പ്രണയം ഒരു നനുത്ത ഓർമ്മയായി നിലനിൽക്കുന്നു .... അതിന്റെ സ്പന്ദനങ്ങൾ എന്റെ കാതുകളിൽ മുഴങ്ങുമ്പോൾ ഞാനറിയുന്നു ഇനിയും മരിക്കാത്ത ആ പ്രണയമാണു നേർത്ത ശ്വാസോച്‌ഛ്വാസങ്ങളിലൂടെ തണുത്തുറഞ്ഞ എന്റെ ആത്‌മാവിലും മനസ്സിലും ഒരു ജീവനാളമായി വിളങ്ങുന്നതെന്ന് ...

നിറങ്ങളും സ്വപ്നങ്ങളും ജീവിതത്തിൽ നിന്നു പോയി മറഞ്ഞാലും എല്ലാ ബന്ധങ്ങളിൽ നിന്നുമകന്ന് ഏകാന്തമാക്കപ്പെട്ടാലും പ്രണയമെന്ന അനശ്വര സത്യത്തെ തൊട്ടറിഞ്ഞവരിൽ അവസാന ശ്വാസം വരെ ആ പ്രണയം ഹൃദയത്തിന്റെ ഒരു കോണിൽ സ്പന്ദിച്ചുകൊണ്ടേയിരിക്കും ... നമ്മൾ മണ്ണോടു ചേരുമ്പോളൾ അനശ്വരമായ ആ പ്രണയം ഒരിക്കലും മരിക്കാത്ത ഓർമ്മക്കളായി ഈ പ്രപഞ്ചത്തിൽ വിഹരിക്കും ...

" പ്രണയമേ ഞാൻ നിന്നെയറിഞ്ഞ നാൾ മുതൽ
അറിയുന്നു നിൻ ജ്വലനത്തിൻ തീവ്രത

അതിലെരിഞ്ഞു ജ്വലിക്കുന്നു നിനക്കായി

എന്നിലുറങ്ങും തീക്ഷ്ണമാമെൻ മോഹങ്ങൾ"

കാർത്തിക ...

"THE WAY YOU LOVE YOUR LIFE DECIDES YOUR DESTINY."

KARTHIKA

Why Is This Happening To Me ?(book review)

"Why Is This Happening To Me?" Written by Wayne Monbleau.

One of the best picks by Rengi. When I was going through the roller coaster of emotions, one day Rengi suggested me to read this book. I opted the last chapter to  begin my reading and never attempted to read the entire book at one stretch as well , actually not had the mindset for digesting that fully. But still I have been going through the each chapter in a gap of three to five days. 

Since I was totally impressed with certain verses in the book, just thought of pen it in my blog. Hereby quoting those words which uplifted my soul and self.

"The very things that held you down are going to carry you up and up and up."

This quote was derived from a Disney film, Dumbo, story of a circus elephant who had been born with unusually enormous ears. Since he was different from other elephants, all other elephants ridiculed him except his loving mother. He was left alone, but a small mouse befriended him and encouraged him to find out his strengths. 

The turning point happening in his life, when he find himself and little companion nestled in the branch of a tree in one morning . They both had a very lengthy discussion about that and at the end the very little mouse stared at his perplexed elephant friend and said with whole excitement "Dumbo , you can fly with your ears!!! The very things that held you down are going to carry you up and up and up." Yes... This is what we need in our life also. If you are blessed with a gift, never intend to loose that , for everyone is not born with that Special Gifts. Give a try rather than just ignoring the blessing , the rest is written in destiny.

"Accept your Humanity " 

  

This illustrates what you are and who you are. Instead of hating yourself and agonizing over your every weakness, accept your humanity and realize when you are weak , you are in a perfect place to see Me ( God) shining through you."

I dare to admit that I am not a perfect person. As a normal human being, I do have lots of flaws and negatives in terms of thought and attitude towards life and experiences.
In this chapter author compare the human life to an earthen vessel. If you are perfect, you are an earthen vessel without any cracks or blemishes. Then people can see the light of the treasure only through one way and hides the light of the treasure altogether.. But a cracked, imperfect vessel lets the treasure's light be seen by all. 

It is inculcating the fact that sometimes God or the Nature wants to disseminate certain messages to the universe through your imperfections and weaknesses... Awesome!!! It doesn't mean that you have the freedom to do all the nonsense in your life. Never...
FIND OUT THE TREASURE WITHIN YOU, NOT THE CRACK.

To summarize,, even if we all aware about the realities of life, when we face the factual circumstances, any of the philosophies or theories never gonna to reach your brain or mind during the outbreaks of the emotions. And we would be totally masked by the effects of that adversities and at the verge of exploding our feelings. It's quite natural and that's  a sort of defense mechanism for continuing our survival in this beautiful earth.

Nothing is gonna to last for ever... That's the most beautiful healing power of God Or the Nature.. 

Sometimes it may leave a scar in your heart but The most powerful words in this world, LOVE will protect that scar from bleeding again with pain ... 

Thank You my Lord for a beautiful life in this Earth..

  

KARTHIKA...