Hearkening to a music at times nourishes me with certain reminiscences. This song has evoked memories of my childhood as well as the persons who inspired me in every walk of life.
Pappa is traveling to Vellore for his further treatment today. His health condition is exacerbating after each episodes of treatment. Since then, his level of confidence is deteriorating, and I can experience what he's going through now.
My Pappa, one among the persons whom I admired most in my early childhood. Eventually, Life had placed me in a certain circumstances by which my admiration had been converted to a phobic state.
Nevertheless, my life experiences have inculcated me with a new perception towards living that never ever hurts someone's feelings. No matter how I was humiliated and mistreated by the people whom I adore and admire most, I have always been determined to provide them the best in their life by being a responsible daughter, caring sister, understanding wife and a true friend.
When I visited my father last time, he was at the verge of crying whenever he looked at my face. Even if my heart was sinking, I controlled all my emotions for being a confident and strong daughter in front of him. He really wished me to accompany with him through out his hospital stay, but unfortunately I couldn't stay with him even a single night due to my ill health.
He told me once, " I have been experiencing a sort of relief once you took charge of all my treatment decisions. Now I am confident." Then I noticed his eyes were filled with tears. From that day forth he achieved a credence in his recuperation. But now....
Pappa.. I really wish I should be there with you all these times. It's my duty and responsibility to be there but life is not enabling me to have that fortune in my living... Please forgive me... I trust and pray that you will come back to a new life soon..
My father is really suffering from his disease... It is not easy to go through such devastating situations in life... You must have both psychological and financial support to overcome all these experiences. We spent already nearly 10 lakhs for his treatment, still need to continue that to save his life... Each chemotherapy costs 60000 Rs... The scan costs 40000 Rs.. This is not to show our budget... Just to inform you all that people who are suffering from cancer really need psychological as well as financial help.. They are actually not suffering from the adversities of the disease, instead the financial burden associated with the treatment....
Even though my Pappa had a very healthy lifestyle, he ended up with cancer... I know it's a fate ... but if you know that you are responsible for your illness, please have an attempt to lead a healthy life... To avoid the aftermath of any diseases in the long run... Be compassionate with your body and soul.. Stay Healthy...
I may not be worth enough in your life ... I might be a person with full of nonsense... But expressing my heart felt gratitude to those precious people who conveyed their affection towards me through the most beautiful words in this universe "LOVE YOU" ... Stay blessed...
Have a safe journey Pappa..... LOVE YOU PAPPA ..... OUR PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU......
With lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses.... Your beloved daughter ....
(feeling so sleepy...it's midnight now.. winding up for the day... actually all these thoughts are for my upcoming Creation... hoping that I can give my best in my book..)
This is one of the most beautiful gifts which I have ever received in my life... It has a beautiful story to share with.
It was gifted by one of my patients In 2013. She is an affluent and well known business lady in Dubai. I was most of the time contacted for her treatment and all, so she had a special attachment with me. By the Grace of God, her treatment got successful and she went to Rome for the thanksgiving prayer. She picked this Rosary for me from the Holy Place and sent me as a gift.
One day she conveyed a message over phone that Tintu when I was offering a prayer in front of the Altar, You crossed my mind, and Then collected this Rosary after rendering a prayer for you. She used to sent me gifts, but I never expected that once she had gone to Rome, she would remember me and choose this for me. Experienced as a most proud full moment....
It has got a divine fragrance and I never deployed that Rosary for my prayers, for I contemplated it as a immensely Sacred. But After two years, I was arbitrated to offer a prayer for a well respected Person in my life through that Rosary... Still continuing that prayer for THEM.... And 55 Beeds in the Rosary spreads the fragrance of my invocation and The People whom I offer that prayer commemorate in my devotion as well. May God Bless... Thank Lord....
I was totally disconnected from all my social profiles, reasons are written in destiny. Thought of deleting my Blog as well... I don't know whenever I tried to delete, it was deviated with one or other reasons...
And I couldn't..
Because this is the place where I can see My Life, My Happiness, My Dreams and My Love . Moreover, this is the World of Letters....
My dreams will always remain as dreams.... But I can see a life in all my dreams....
I am gonna to concentrate more on online writing and publications...... With the support of my Rengi, I am sure I would be able to bring forth my dreams to reality .....
Rengi is downloading lots of books for me... My world is now constrained within the four pillars .... My Rengi, Books, Writings and My Blog..... Thank Lord..
MATTHEW : 7, 1-2 1. “เดจിเด്เดเตพ เดตിเดงിเด്เดเดช്เดชെเดാเดคിเดฐിเด്เดേเดฃ്เดเดคിเดจ്เดจു เดตിเดงിเด്เดเดฐുเดคു. 1. Judge not, that ye be not judged.
2. เดจിเด്เดเตพ เดตിเดงിเด്เดുเดจ്เดจ เดตിเดงിเดฏാเตฝ เดจിเด്เดเดณെเดฏും เดตിเดงിเด്เดും; เดจിเด്เดเตพ เด เดณเด്เดുเดจ്เดจ เด เดณเดตിเดจാเตฝ เดจിเด്เดเตพเด്เดും เด เดณเดจ്เดจു เดിเด്เดും. 2. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured unto you.
