Falling apart..

My life is falling apart...

I can only hear the sounds of weeping ..

I can only perceive a mere darkness around me..

My solitude kills me with the aching memories..

My dreams are flying away from me.

My life is falling apart..

Meaning of life.. Who can give the complete definition for that?

 If it hits you with all luck and prosperity, can be defined as Beautiful...
If it hurts you with hardships, can be defined as Miserable..

When it hugs you with no more hopes and dreams, can be defined as Death ... End of your Destiny...

Happy to hear that my hospital is going to terminate 60 staffs initially and then remaining... I don't know what to call for that. Whether it's beautiful or miserable or death..

I know loosing a job is not an End of Life.. But when it happens amidst all the painful realities, it's gonna to be a Death of all my dreams and hopes...

I have been preparing for an exam since last month.. Actually that is going to decide my destiny in that hospital.. Whenever I open my book, I can't read even a single sentence  , for each and every words in the book expelling thousands of questions towards me.. Then My mind would begin to wander around for the answers .. At the end, I can only witness.. myself sitting in front of my book with a stare look and Keeping my head down..... 

If I fail in that exam, I am sure I am gonna to loose my job.. If I loose my job, my life will be stagnant.. I won't be able to support my father for his treatment..... My visa process will be ceased forever..

The attitude of my loved ones towards me may alter ..

So, then what is left in my life?????

A body with a wounded heart which is completely masked by desperation...

Is this the way I am gonna to learn the "REALITIES OF LIFE"????

Is this the right way to comprehend the MEANING OF LIFE, LOVE and SELF???

MIGHT BE.. Wonderful.. Really wonderful... 

Need a full stop for everything.. So that I don't reach to anyone by any means .... 

Lord I am extremely sorry.. I know how much you Love me.. But I have failed in regaining my confidence back.. And My life back.. 

It's okay... It's not anyone's fault.... MY FATE .... 

Who am I then????

A person who believes in Trust, Love and Respect...
 A person who expected a drop of respect and love from everyone since childhood until the the day I realized that I was not supposed to reach my loved ones..
A person with lots of Dreams but deeply inculcated with the fact that my dreams never touch the reality...

LET IT BE....

Still I Love to believe.. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL...